The Entrepreneurship Journey #01: The START
Happy 2022!
The end of the past year and the start of the new year is often a time for me where I actively try to embrace new change, and allow myself to try something new. This year I have decided to leave some things behind and embark a completely new journey. This journey is one that I have been looking forward to for a really long time, and one that I would even consider a dream. I am starting my own business, passion spotlight. I have been putting of this dream for so long, that I decided that there simply was not going to be a better time. As this is truly a journey in which I will hopefully grow and learn more about myself, I wanted to share weekly updates with you and keep you up to date with my entrepreneurial adventure.
In 2021, I had started a new job and made the first steps in my career. I really tried to be openminded throughout the year to new experiences and everything that I could be learning within the corporate world. Soon I realised that I knew that this was not something that I would want to do in the future because I could not do the things the tasks that really gave me the energy that I needed. I want to fill my days with creativity, flow and autonomy over my own work and working hours. I simply realised that I needed to try something new, and something I would not have dared to do at the beginning of the year. I wanted to learn what it meant to be self-employed and what it is like to really embrace the challenges that lied ahead.
The difference between ‘starting’ and ‘actually starting’
Fast forward to the 3rd of January I was sick in bed, being self-employed and daunting the fact that I had no income, and wanted so badly to be successful in my new adventure. I think for the first time in months I have finally let myself go and stopped worrying about every place that I needed to be, and started being, and enjoying the process more. My body saw this as an opportunity to let me know that I need more rest and much more calm. The difference for me between thinking about starting, starting and actually doing the work, is that actually doing it is a lot more scary and a lot more vulnerable.
This made me realise that I have a such a long journey still to go in terms of mindset and being in tune with my own health. It brought up a lot of remaining issues surrounding my “I am not good enough’ story, which my mind tells me once in a while. Yet I also realised that this is exactly why I wanted to embark on this journey, because I am more than willing to do the deep work and work through it. I am in it because I want to pursue my dreams and live my passions and this is just part of the journey.
Just start doing
As I write this I am at the start of my 5th workday and my second work week. Today I allow myself to show up as I am, sick or not, trying my best and allowing myself to do what I love most to do, create and think of new ideas. At this moment in time, I am sure that I will find my way even when my own self-doubt distorts my own vision and guidance. I know that the ups and downs will remain to be there, but that I can also find ways to work through them. I am doing the work to keep showing up and persist in following my dreams.